I have decided to add “get over my fear of commitment” to my bucket list and I think its a great place to start as there is obviously no physical activity involved. Also William Shatner is getting up there and I think I need to be prepared to settle down if he ever does happen to look me up. I thought the best place to start would be with a self help book. I love those things. Its so much easier to just skip the chapter on halted emotional growth than to stick your fingers in your ears and sing “I’m not listening!” when you are talking to a therapist, wasting an hour of your life, a thirty dollar copay and risking being asked to leave the premises. Or worse yet being “asked” to stay for a 72 hour “rest” when your therapist is running an hour and a half behind just when you are getting ready to make a breakthrough on your explosive anger with the receptionist. Unfortunately Books-a-Million is right next to Total Beer and Wine and as I’ve mentioned before I am very easily distracted. Thank goodness for google. In reviewing some of the symptoms it seems as if I am a classic commitmentphobe. Attraction to unavailable men, overly critical and unrealistic ideals, fear of lost options. But then there was this: “fear of making poor decisions” Silly me I don’t even have a problem.